confession

Title; confession

Genre;Angst, Romance??

Rating; PG

Pairings; yamajima

A/N; this is a sequel from this fic 
i am really happy with so many yamajima lately, true love has return:)) today the first episode of "risou no musuko"  i was not watching it :"(( but just by seeing this made me so happy tonight. now i want to watch the full episode so bad >,<

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It has been four years since the last time I met him; him the one who always stuck in my mind all the time, the one who always made me shivered just by saying his name. Last night he suddenly called me after four years I never had any information about him. 

“moshi moshi” I was too lazy to pick up a phone since I was watching my favorite anime

“moshi moshi, yamachan” just by hearing the familiar voice made me stunned immediately. “It’s me yuuto, nakajima yuuto, do you still remember me?” he added. Oh my God! I feel like hitting by thunder hearing that name.

“yuuto?”  was my simple answer

“un, it’s me. are you busy? Did I disturb you?”

“ah! No. you are not. I am free” “hehe…”

“how are you doing? You know I miss you, I want to talk to you like old time. Do you have time to meet me tomorrow in the café?” I was speechless.  What’s happening? Did he just said missed me? I didn’t know how I should react.

 “yamachan? Are you still there? I don’t mind if you are busy, it’s ok”

“oh! Yes, I am here. Ok I’ll be there at 3pm”

“oh! Thank you. See you tomorrow”

“un, see you”

Click! He hung the phone.

I was still stunning; how could he know my number? I wonder? That night I couldn’t sleep properly, his voice and words still ringing in my head. Oh God help me.

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That afternoon I came late to the café on purpose, actually I didn’t know why I came to the café at the first place. When I arrived at the café I saw two familiar faces; yuuto was there with keito, his best friend ever, I think.  They sat at the corner of the café; they chatted and laughed happily. I wonder why yuuto invited me so suddenly in the first place. I bet yuuto must be having a very wonderful life everyday without me. I hesitant to go inside of the café but I didn’t know why it’s like my feet against my heart.

“konichiwa” I greet the two and they stop their laughing instantly

“konichiwa. Yamachan finally you arrived, have a sit. It’s so nice to meet you” keito greeted me with a huge smile in his face; I wonder he must be really happy with yuuto earlier.

“You know, yuuto was so worried if you won’t come today. But you are here right now. Yokatta ne yuuto” he added and gives a grin to yuuto.

I looked at yuuto hesitantly; I was too scared to look directly to his eyes.

I didn’t remember how long I have been there and there’s no any single word come from yuuto, it’s keito who always asked about many things, like “yamachan, what are you doing lately?”

“yamachan you losing your weight, what did you do?”

“yamachan you became more beautiful, you must be have many girl/boyfriend ne?”

Keito’s last question made yuuto spilled his drink, he was choked. I didn’t know why; I still silence and observed the two. Keito was couldn’t help laughing at yuuto and I felt sorry for yuuto.

After keito finished his food he excused himself to toilet but he never come back, I think he gave this time just for me and yuuto to talk.

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After keito leaving me and yuuto, there’s none between us uttered any word. It was an awkward situation between us. I just looked at my food and ate my food. I didn’t know any topic to talk to, I was blank. 

“how are you?” yuuto finally break the silence

“un, fine” I answer short

“nice”

Silence

“do you mind to have a walk with me after this?” he asked

“eh!” I surprised with his statement before

“it’s ok if you-“

“un, ikou” I cut his statement and now he stare at me right in my eyes, and I could feel that my cheeks are redden and warm.

“arigatou” he gave me the smile that I missed so much

After finished with our food, we decided to have a walk. This is the street where we used to walk together when we were in high school. Walking together with yuuto in that street was like a flash back for me, I missed those moment so much. We stopped walking at the bus stop and finally yuuto uttered something from his mouth and break the nth how long we have been silence.

“do you remember this place” he asked as we sat at the bus stop wait for the bus

“sure, I use that bus everyday” I answer and gave my sweetest smile

“un, sure” he smile

“the bus is coming, let’s go” he griped my hand and pulled me to the bus, I was surprised with his action. I only watched his back in front of me.

“here, sit” he let me sit close to the window

“like it? Your favorite spot right?” he added happily

At the old time, when we were in high school, we always use this bus lane to go to school; he, yuuto always saves a seat near to the window for me; that was my favorite seat in the bus. Even until now my favorite seat is the seat in the second row near to the window, the seat that yuuto always save for me every day we go to school. But suddenly when we in the second year of high school he changed, he avoiding all the time. He never talks to me again; I lost my only friend. He never save any seat for me again, he even never look at me in my eyes, he never talk to me for the rest of our high school day. At that time everyday was like hell. I wonder what I did wrong to him, I cry every night. And now he is right here pretends like there’s nothing happen.

“yamachan” he waved his hand in front of my face

“ ” I didn’t know what’s happening to me, but all of these is  just to sudden for me. Why must he come to my life again? Why did he do all such things to me? After these four years and now he comeback suddenly, I don’t know how to react.

“yamachan are ok?”

“yamachan?”

“yamachan, are you crying” I could felt his thumb already there in my cheek, wiped away my tears.

“I am sorry for making you crying, I never meant to” he wiped away my tears tenderly.

“I am sorry, it’s all my foolishness” I couldn’t stop my tears, I tried to but they keep pouring like rain.

“why did you come back?” I asked between my tears

“I want you to forgive me, I made you suffered, and I made your tears pouring. I am sorry yamachan; I am sorry for my stupidity”

“I am so sorry; I was confused about my feeling to you. I wonder how your will react if there’s a guy confessing to you. I didn’t have any encourage admitting my feeling to you; I was scared that you will angry with me if I confess. But I couldn’t that close to any more since I couldn’t control myself when I am with you. I am sorry, I was so stupid” he rants when I still quite in my sobs.

“and now I am here, I want to be with you all the time and save a seat for you . I will never let those tears appear in your beautiful eyes again” he pulls me to his embrace and plant a soft kiss in my forehead. I could feel his warm; I already missed this guy so much. I buried my face to his embrace, he hold me until we arrived to the next bus stop.

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That night, he sent me home while holding my hands tightly.

“yamachan, I hope you forgive me already” he said as we stopped in front of my apartment

“un” I nodded

“sangkyu na yamachan”

“ano ne yamachan, ehm.. ano…” he hold my hands tighter than before, I took a glace to my hand and to this beautiful boy’s eyes in front of me.

“haik”

“yamachan, ano.. I hope you want to go out with me”

“un, sure” I smile widely

“hontou??!! Arigatou… yosh!!!”

“un, yuuto kun ga suki, daisuki”

“I love you yamachan” He jump to me and hug me tight. “so let’s start our date tomorrow” he added. He gave me a long kiss in my forehead before him heading home. I hope time stop at the moment so I could feel this kind of happiness feeling all the time.

Right now I am so happy, I have my one and only best friend, maybe I should call boy friend right now, back to me. I hope this happiness feeling will always be part of me, us. And to night I couldn’t sleep properly again, because tomorrow I will have my very first date.
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 A/N: still not good in writing fanfiction.. i hope i could write something better ><